Rach Ally Martin

“Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately, in love with suffering.”
—FYODOR DOSTOYEVSKY, Russian novelist, Notes from the Underground

VENT part 2

OK so my current acting class I was staying in cuz a) it was cheap & b) it was at a decent hour & c) my teacher was pretty cool & gave good insite, he came across as chill and open but another teacher has turned on me!!

In the course of me “following the rules” i notified my teacher of my trip and figured I would resume class when I returned. I ended up getting my flights all switched around and I missed more class than I had intended not to mention I keep getting really sick, and with the horrible CFS/POTS syndrome symptoms I am legally disabled and handicapped. My teacher went OFF on me (DAMN upside down coyote I picked in my tarot cards!! said I’d be blindsided by someone least expected) I never knew he CARED that I came at noon, for me just GOING is huge. I find it VERY very upsetting that a lot of these classes are obsessed with tardiness and absences making it impossible for someone like me to take classes and treating it like a fucking high school/junior high class. I’m sorry but someone telling me I lack consistency makes me think of myself like gravy or a tub of jello, it is not what you tell a PERSON. Anyways I confronted said teacher and I said what I needed to say: mainly that I am shocked and surprised a fellow actor would lack such a basic human emotion as EMPATHY. ANYWAYS I’m pissed but glad because now I have no temptation to go back.

I’m done being a student!! I have my own fucking camera I’m fucking filming myself and my own shit cuz thats the only way this is gunna happen!! No more!

OK I’M OUT!

Song: “FUCKING PROBLEMS”-A$AP ROCKY

This is what annoys me. People who are mean to me for no reason. Today at CVS, I dropped off my prescription and as soon as they realize what it is for (I have a ton of pain, therefore pain meds mean I can live and survive) they turn on me as if I am a criminal. I am polite and nice and I smile and I get treated rudely and meanly for no reason other than that I am legally trying to receive my medication. It is unbelievable.

Also Rituxin isn’t working at all, in fact I’ve been getting much worse. I am supposed to start another antibiotic in a few days, but as it turns out my Doctor’s inept nurse received 2 messages in October of which she didn’t return thus the drug company sent the prescription back and I am left with the awful sweating, fevers, FLU extreme I feel when I go off antibiotics. I have been waiting to try this since last seeing my doctor in JULY.

Let’s see, otherwise I am exhausted but had a very nice day up until then. I’m going to enter this Glamour essay contest about a challenge I’ve had to overcome. I hope I can win it.